I have a confession to make.
It is hard not knowing what is next.
Not what is down the road.
Not what is going on in a month.
But what I am going to do tomorrow.
Or next week.

I still have no job.
Several applications in.
But no news.

It is getting harder.
Which is making me trust more.
But is filling my mind with so many questions.

Do I get a temp job?
Do I get a temp place of my own?
Do I wait until it finally comes along?
What is "it"?
Will I know "it" when it does come along?

I just don't know the right answer right now.
And that is harder than anything.
I need a job.
He knows I need a job.
I'm open to going just about anywhere in the world.
Shouldn't that make it all that much easier?
But it doesn't.

It is just hard.
Not knowing.
Just waiting.
With bills stacking up.
He will provide.

I just hope it is soon.