Perhaps I am the only one who has ever done this...
You make a decision.
But then you become uncertain.
So you change your mind.
Only later to realize that it had been a good thing.
But its too late.
The chance is gone.
Like a leaf blown away by the wind.
Never to return.

So you pray for comfort.
Ask God to be the arms around you.
You cry a little bit because of your mistake.
And you keep breathing in and out.
You continue onward.
Because really, there is nothing else that you can do.
Wishes don't make it happen.
Memories in your mind won't bring it back.

But you can continue to hope that somehow God will pass on your prayers.
That the chance might hear them.
But walk on.
Knowing that His grace will sustain you in your present reality.