This phrase comes back to me at the most random times. Today is one of those times...but its not so random. For those of you who are like me, and don't know French, this means, "What am I doing?" My roomie, Ade, from my first year in Senegal used to say this all the time, though it usually came out when she was cooking. It's one of the few I remember simply because I heard it so much. (And yes, I looked it up because Lord knows I cannot spell in French!)

Today I have done a few things that have me wondering about my mental health...have I finally gone over the edge? Quite possibly. Here are some of the things I have done in the past couple of days...

• Added a class to my already tough schedule
• Spent way more money than I have to buy the books for the class I added
  
• Submitted a query
• Ate a bowl of cereal this morning thinking that would get me through until dinner
• After waking up from 3-5am, not resetting my alarm, thinking I could still pull off 8am
• Hung out my laundry on a day when it didn't get above 40 and the sun was hardly shining
• Bought a Ted Dekker novel (classes start in one week)
• Started making plans for 2.5 weeks in advance (unheard of in my world)

Maybe that doesn't seem too bad to y'all...but things are just not in rhythm in my world...ah well, the music is still playing, just gotta get back on the beat.

PS...if you think on it, please pray that I will find a job...applied several places, haven't heard anything and the funds are getting low. Thanks. :)