So sometimes in life you just have to make up your mind that you ARE indeed going to push through something...even if everyday is pretty rotten...I learned this little thing while in Senegal from my good friends Cori and Phil called "mind over matter". So after a tough breaking point the other night, I realized that sometimes we just have to suck it up, recognize that the situation might not get any better, and make up your mind to find joy in the days regardless...so I guess I'm not where I would like to be in life, really...but I feel that for now, I am where God wants me. And in my life, that's really all that matters to me...if I'm where He wants me, I figure I can take anything, even when He gives too much...because all I can do then is lean into Him...He's all I have. He's had me in a similar place before...and if I survived that mess with His guiding hand, I believe He'll carry me through anything...haha, despite my lapses in faith and many tears. :) He's good...even when life stinks.