I wanted to write something today. I had written a blog about Abidjan and how safe it really is not and the temptation to worry. I erased it. I had written a blog about some hard things in life. But I didn't want to get too personal. I erased it.

My mind is reeling with thoughts today. Some so full of hope. Some broken with dreams that I had when I came here. Some are joyful. Some make me want to cry. Today is a gorgeous day. I have spent the whole morning outside. First just having a quiet time. Then meeting with Ruthie, the girl I mentor. Then playing catch with the frisbee.

Today is gorgeous. The sun is shining. The breeze is blowing. The birds are singing. It is nearly perfect. I am listening to a sermon by Adrian Rogers called "When things don't make sense" and he is going through 5 things not to do when you are going through a time when things don't make sense. I wish I would have heard this sermon 6 months ago. Things may be very different now had that happened. Things in my life don't really make sense right now. They haven't for 6 months.

Here's what Adrian says about when things don't make sense:
1) Don't demand to understand
2) Don't fail to be faithful
3) Don't bow to bitterness
4) Don't be unwilling to wait
5) Don't let dreams disolve

"Don't doubt in the dark what God has showed you in the light."

Listen for yourself... http://resources.christianity.com/ministries/lwftv/main/talkInfo.jhtml?id=50024&JServSessionIdroot=r8hmy7yw72